self love. self care. gratitude. manifestation.

from the heart

parts 1-7 in the story of my life

Hopping back on the dating sites, and I had a gentleman ask me, if i were to write a book on my life – what would the back cover say?

Quite a deep question for an initial conversation, but as I thought about it – I started writing.

It didn’t turn out in the format as expected, but it goes something like this:

Part 1: A tale of a middle child, growing up in a special needs household. 

The quiet one.
The good girl.
The do everything the way you “should”
Excel in school.
Go to college.
Buy a house.
Get married.
Work two jobs.
Go to grad school.
Following the American dream… 

Death.

One day she wakes up, and realizes life isn’t about the “should.’

Part 2: Reclaiming her life.

Divorce.
Pursues her passions.
Discovers fitness, health.
Networking.
Friendships.
Heartbreak.
Loss.
Death.

Three month trifecta of trauma.

Part 3: Everything is sunshine and rainbows (on the outside)

Fitness to the extreme. 
Competitions.
Photo shoots.
Modeling.
Disordered eating.
Body dysmorphia.
Repressed grief.
More competitions.
Makes plans to move across the country.
No offers on the house. No jobs secured.
Pandemic.
More competitions.
Broken bones.
More broken bones.

The Universe whacking her with a 2×4.

Part 4: The wake up 

Without a prime functioning physical body, the mental/emotional/spiritual starts to arise.
More self growth.
More self love.
Inner work.
Healthy habits.
Career boom.

Soulmate love.

Thriving coaching business.
Travel, travel, travel.

Everything is falling into place.

Part 5: Darkness

Death.
Guilt, shame, loss.
Travel
Going through the motions.
Hanging on by a thread.
Travel
Physical health suffers.
Mental health suffers.
Travel
Lump in the breast.
Benign.

Spiritual awakening begins.

Part 6: Reclamation and Destruction

Houseplants.
Therapy
Therapy
Travel
Therapy
Travel
Finds love again.
Health issues.
Love turns to friendship.
Health improves.
Back to thriving.
Back to struggling.
Cancels entire coaching business.
Supplements, protocols, therapy.

Cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Part 7: (a chapter in progress)

Redefining priorities.
Community.
House hunting.
Career bump.
Life-changing travel.
Physical health improves.
Mental health improves.
Friendship circle grows.
Self-worth boom.
Manifesting.
Thriving.
Growing.

Open to abundance in all forms.

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